Monday, August 25, 2008

cultural dysphoria

could it be possible to be born into the wrong race? or do i just think i've been wronged with this pale skin and lack of dance moves?one of my many many many interesting and colorful clients is a m to f transgender who was born with gender dysphoria. his/her solution? a flight to thailand and a surgeon willing to "re-create." i'm not trying to start a theological war here -all i'm saying is that many days as i walk down the streets of san francisco, i am more shocked when i catch a glimpse of a white girl in windows that i look into than i probably should be...and in some small (small small small small) way i get it. in my mind i should be a curvy latina with heavily painted lips, tight capri jeans and the name "carlitos" tatooed below her left ear. when i was in kindergarden i wanted nothing more than to be black ,wear 900 colored barettes in my hair and be named latisha. you may think i'm kidding. i assure you i am not. i think i was born white as an oversight. remember playing that game where you would try to lineup all the colors in the pegs to match your opponents and then you'd correct the other by saying things like , right color wrong place, wrong color wrong place etc? well, i feel like i'm the wrong color, right place. right family, right name, right age, but the color? c'mom....all wrong. i make a mean enchilada, can find a pinata for any occasion and really would not mind driving a 1993 honda accord with 2 doors and the trunk painted over in primer gray. so- cultural dysphoria? who's down to fund the study?

3 comments:

Kristina said...

Tre-C,
You know I know exactly what you're saying girl! I'm proud of you and your new career in SF. And your blog seriously rocks! Te amo prima... (It's portugues, but it's pretty close, no?)

Scott, Annie, and Nathaniel Green said...

Oh Tracy. I never took you for one who was unable to detect sarcasm. Though maybe I should have suspected you'd be rooting for the man of color.

Jeanette Millward said...

You are funny, Tracy. Keep on bloggin'.